I'm coming up for air, and God help me when I do.

get into those moods where
everything is going perfect, well, too perfect,
&& you just know something is gonna happen to screw it up..

That's how I feel, my life is going toooo great. It makes me suspicious. I mean, I'm just waiting for Life to throw me
a curve ball and make fun of me for believing.

But, I don't think that will happen. It can't happen.
I'm too happy. God, I pray we get to keep this house.
I don't want to move again. It's ridiculous.

Tomorrow is James' graduation =)
I know I'm going to cry, just for the fact that its a
graduation and I will start to think of mine.

Graduation is the last time you and all your classmates will be together. It's sad. But, life goes on, you make new friends.
It doesn't mean you don't think of the old ones though. The ones you thought would be there for you forever.

With that said, forever is a funny word. No one means forever.
Like when people say, "omg bffna"
uh, no..I can't tell you how many times I thought i had a bffna during middle/high school... if you do manage to find a best friend
that's there for you through your whole life. you are
freakin' LUCKY. && well, now that I think about it, I have mara and britt, so I'm pretttttty lucky. please&&thankyou

&& I'm lucky to have James. Gah, he's too good for me.
Buuut I don't care. hahah.. He's mine, thank God =)

<center>Wow, It's been too effin long since I last updated this so yeah, here is an update on my life.

I just got done with my first year of college && summer break is now in full swing. But i must say, it's started out as quite a bore. And in the midst of my updates, I managed to find the best guy out there.  Mr. James Ronald Whitt.  He makes me smile alot && this update will more than likely be centered mostly around him.

This is James. It's funny to think I "knew" him for 2 years, but only really got to know him this past month. Also reminding me that today is the 21st. It's been ONE month for me and him, and it's been the best month of my life I must say. He's just amazing. He makes me feel like I'm important. He tells me he likes me all the time and it's just nice to know that someone out there actually cares about me.  He even dedicated a blog to me, which I will soon do. Me and my lazyness =). I need to get over that. Lol. But what else Can I say about him!. OMG, he's just absolute-ly amazing as stated previously. He's funny, sweeeet =), and himself. He's everything I could ever want in a guy and so much more. I know I tell him all the time that he means alot to me but I don't think he realizes the depth of it. He's like, the center of my universe now. Everything and Anything I do reminds me of him or revolves around him.  I am actually starting to plan my summer around him, telling mom I want to include him in all these things we do this summer, Lol.  I loooove just sitting there on the couch with him, watching tv && holding his hand [[cuteness, first time he held my hand he was like  "I wanna hold your hand, but I don't wanna ask"]] hahaha.  Awwws, and when he asked me out, I was taking him home and he was like [[I wanna tell you something, gah my stomach hurts, NO NO NO, that's not what I wanted to tell you]] haha.. then he confessed how much he liked me && asked me out. wooot =)  && to think I could have missed him.
It all started with a bulletin I posted needing someone to go to charleston with me. He was joking around saying that he would go, so I told him he could, and he went. && well yeah, infatuation began and it's been like that ever since. It's late, and I want to type more, buuuut I will update this tomorrow. I swear.. James is lovely. Just thought I would mention that one more time =)

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well well

once again.. as usual.. college effin sucks.. but its ok..

and me and my mom and britty danielle are going to the movies and

bowling tonight.. cause we are UBER cool..haha

heck yes.. and yeah... its all good and all that stuff and um.. yeah.. and yeah..haha..

my myspace is

www.myspace.com/another_stupid_punk

so yeah.. add me.. and it has some other stuff on there

but i'll update more later.. on my way to charleston

loves!